he is looking for a revelation

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VICTORIAN BEAUTY
THE FEAR OF EXPOSITION
A GAS LEAK
PICKING COCONOTS
THINGS I NEVER DARED TO SAY
IDENTITY, IDENTITY
MORAL AND POLITICAL ISSUES
WORDS MORE WORDS.

So, here is this character ESE that goes to the basement of an abandoned house. He sees a notebook on the floor. He finds sketches and doodles, but also things that someone wrote centuries ago. This person, from the Victorian century, wrote something about someone:

"The research of the identity is a personal exploration. I told you once, when I was risky… YOU are a prototype, a project of a human being. Don’t be scared, we all are projects of something else… but your referents are grounded on a previous life, a life that it's not your life. You always have answers to political and moral issues. You never hesitate. I just look at you and I think…God, I don’t have these answers. Reality is complex and even if I experience one hundred years of a life and I read all these books, I don’t have answers. Kundera knows more about this than I do…this life is the waiting room of LIFE.

You are the extension of a previous life: your father’s life. I am not. I don’t believe in that. I AM SKEPTICAL. I believe in personal experience. Yes, I do believe in the method of validation through experience. Is that a way to dignify myself? I am empiric but I do believe that subjectivism is just a window and it is based on personal perception, so yes: I do believe in perspectivism.

I love a personal identity and I think that exploring the identity is not only a task of self-respect but also of love. LOVE AND LOVE.

You know what?
This old lady told me that if “I am present in the present” I’ll find the clues to solve my big doubt. This type of decisions brings us the wisdom. A pure wisdom. Free from your ego.”

Then ESE runs to the rooftop of that house. The floor is full of waves. He holds the notebook with his hand and looks at the sky. It’s spring. It's spring and he still begs for a moment of revelation.



PS: March 13th...One year ago I took a flight to NYC for an interview...

***EDIT***
The exploration of a personality is against the alienation.
ALIENACIÓN
La alienación o enajenación es el fenómeno de suprimir la personalidad, desposeer al individuo de su personalidad o deshacer la personalidad del individuo, controlando y anulando su libre albedrío, para hacer a la persona dependiente de lo dictado por otra persona u organización. El alienado permanece dentro de sí, ensimismado por su desorientación social. Es un proceso que puede ser autoinducido.